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Vanilla Twilight ( December 17, 2012 )


The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach

Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

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I didn't know the song until you asked me to listen to it. You said it's how you feel, and that it's for me. After listening to the song, I felt the same. You are right. But we are wrong..

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Refreshed ( December 16, 2012 )


Yesterday was certainly a refreshing day, out of the ordinary and rewarding.

First, I got reunited with my dear friends, talked, laughed, reminisced and shared our current drama and lessons learned. Old friendship refreshed is like wearing an old favorite dress, feeling relieved it still fits, perfectly.

Second, I was refreshed of reason. I am beginning to understand why things happened. And why it is really time that I learn.

Third, I was refreshed of my motherly responsibilities. I couldn't stand listening to my son who's crying crazy over the phone because I wasn't around. I was worried, and my parents kept on igniting the tension. I didn't enjoy myself completely during the wedding. I wanted to go home badly but I was miles away.

Finally, I was refreshed of hope. I just wish it was more solid, safer and more agreeable.

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3 in 1 ( December 15, 2012 )


In just one day, three big things took me by surprise, and oh, well, horror and madness.

First, I've loosened up, gone crazy and tried to ignore it really happened. No one knows, anyway.

Second, I attended a beach wedding for the first time and was blown away by the love and beauty of the day and the couple. I still dream of a lovely wedding, and of course, a promise of true love.

Third, just like the grand and unforgettable days in college, I was scolded and mentally tortured by my parents all because they had to babysit for my son while I was away to attend that wedding. And it goes on, and on and right now, all I can do is understand, or at least try.

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One Hour, or Less ( December 14, 2012 )


Tomorrow, I have an hour or less to free myself from the shackles of sanity, and to try to listen to the echoes of my tattered heart... You have to be there. You have to wait.. even if I'm not going to be there, even if it's never going to be easy..

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The Big Why ( December 13, 2012 )


Just before midnight, I started watching "The Perks of being a Wallflower." Truly, it was humorous and heart-breaking at the same time. I smiled, laughed and cried for the most part. I remembered high school, and how I studied very much and enjoyed so little. Also, early in the movie, one of my biggest questions in life was answered briefly, and truthfully. The boy asked his professor why do nice people end up with the people who doesn't treat them right. The professor said, "We accept the love we think we deserve..". Then I realized more how much I settled, and just how I further do so. I have to think, and know, and believe that I deserve MORE.

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